Monday, February 09, 2009

One Huge Red Flag

Mark and I went to see the fertifiltiy doctor on Friday. Took 6 months to get the appointment. Once we got there we found out there was all this blood work and other various tests that still need to be completed before they can narrow down our issue and advise us. Considering that we have been waiting 6 months it would have been nice to know these needed to be done so we could, you know, get them done before the appointment. Seriously, it seems to me that the right hand doesn't know what the left hand is doing. And my uterus just keep getting older.

This is the sort of thing that I believe would drive those who are absolutley twisted by the need to pass on their own DNA to the very brink. I think there is a lot of crying and yelling during these meetings. I kind of picked that up for the way were treated with kid gloves the whole time we were there. I wasn't going to explode or cry, I was just annoyed that I wasn't told to do this before, because now it is going to take a month to get it done. Hurry up, and wait. My fertility story.

What was far more galling? I don't know if that is the right word, because the doctor was only being honest, and she was very nice about it, maybe upsetting? Was the fact that I seem to be one HUGE red flag. You know how I know this: because she said to me: you are one big red flag. So here is how it breaks down. Between the ancient (37 year old) orvaries, the fact that my menstral cycles are short (really? I thought 28 days was normal), my actual periods being short (I'll take short over long), and the fact that my sisters have had problems concieving, she suspects I may have an underlying egg issue. That's right, an underlying egg issue. Some where on the protzoa level in my body some molecule is not playing nice with another molecule. But she can't say that is abolutely it for sure until more tests are conducted. But I just can't help thinking of all those years I worried about getting pregnant and all that money I spent on birth control, when all along two molecules were fighting and I needn't have worried anyhow.

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